“The Lord sustains them on their sickbed and restores them from their bed of illness.”
Psalms 41:3 NIV
At twenty seven, I became a single mom to two beautiful babies, a three year old and a five month old. I had never been married… And I clearly was no longer pure. Or so I thought. This was a lie the enemy tried to keep me down with most of my life- different ways in different seasons.
Purity. No matter if we're in the world or not, it is a fact that everyone is attracted to righteousness and purity- even when it comes out of us as envy or resentment. Little do we know the purity has more to do with your heart posture than what you have done with your body. You could be a virgin and have the most defiled spirit.
Even when I renewed my vows to being faithful to my husband until we said our vows- my heart was not pure. My heart was SICK with lust, fear, anger, envy and low self esteem.
The Lord truly restored my desire to remain pure for His glory. He restored brokenness that came from over 20 years of trauma from sexual abuse and my abuse to myself through that. The things I did to others, using others, directing my anger and bitterness towards others, belittling others and encouraging others around me to defile themselves.
I am starting to see that God truly desires to restore us to our original design because HE MADE US. He wants to purify us and refine us- He does that through our trials and through moments of intimacy in his presence. As I see his process of restoration, I can’t help but smile because of his love and the hope that if He did with me, He surely can do it with you.
Saray Hernandez
Tribe Member
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